I'm trying to figure out positivity. I've not been doing great at that. <- lol negative. I don't know why I constantly feel like giving up. I know that I am exactly where I am supposed to be right now at this point in my life but I have a hard time getting over whatever mental block it is that seems to be holding me back from being the best version of myself. I guess I just need to continue to try new things and tactics to help propel my self forward. My mom thinks if I start horseback riding again that will help. I think a big chunk of my problems would be solved if I could just get back in shape, which I know. And it is easier said than done unfortunately.... but I am going to work my ass off this summer to get my self confidence to a good place and where it isn't holding me back from being successful in my work. I NEED TO BE BETTER I WANT TO BE BETTER I CAN BE BETTER.