Dear Body, Thank You

You don't realize how much you use your body until you can't. I've been in so much pain the last week or so and I felt absolutely helpless. I was sleeping on ice packs (if I was sleeping, I've been awake til like 3 or so because the pain is too much), I went to the chiropractor three times and have to continue to go twice a week for who knows how long because I can't afford to slow down right now. My poor roommates basically had to do everything for me on Sunday because I couldn't move without feeling like I was going to break.

 Sorry if I'm bitching, but this was my week.

I hate feeling helpless. I don't like to be the one that everyone has to accommodate for. I enjoy my independence. I had to ask for help a lot this week, because I knew that was the responsible thing to do. I knew that in order for me to even make it through this semester I needed to swallow my pride and be helped.

I'm going to try to not take advantage of all the great things my body does for me regularly. I don't think I realize just how lucky I am to be here and be living the great life I am. My body deserves to be congratulated and thanked for all of the work if does for me and keeping me alive. I can run, jump, dance, sing, create, cry, pray, laugh, sleep, move, and LIVE because of my body. so. Dear Body, thank you.

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